maxine.  i’ve been feeling guilty for not having the words to blog how your arrival touched my life.  i realize that i don’t have them yet because it takes a long time to process something so profoundly wonderful.  they will come, but it will take time for me to wrap my brain around my heart was instantly swollen with love for you.

you are 7 months old.  your smile.  it disarms me.  i forget myself even after all these months.

you want to be close to mama always.  i know it won’t always be this way and i will miss you when you start to explore your world without me.  but right now i can hold you close.

you love to nurse.  and i love to look down at you in hopes that you will take a moment to pop off and flash me a milky smile as you do sometimes.

everything feels so right when i bury my lips in your delicious cheeks.

you’re a silly baby.  so happy.  i want to keep you this way, as you are right now, always.  but i don’t want to miss out on any of your tomorrows either.

know that i love you with my entire soul.  when i look at you my heart giggles and i feel love surge through my veins as if a damn burst.  and keeps on bursting.  those are my love explosions for you, my little bubble.